October is here and yes Alevels has begun. Time passes by ever so quickly. My hair has grown twice as much and yet it dropped off twice as much.  My friend from college even attempted to count the hairs on my head. Haha.

I've heard one familiar line dozens of times: "God knows how many hairs you have on your head."  

I like that. It goes to show, no one really knows who they are. 'Searching for your identity'. The phrase of motivation the world drives into us. 'Think and therefore you are' but seriously, no one can find their identity anywhere else except through the creator who created them. Looking for it elsewhere or creating it yourself would only be asking the world and yourself repeatedly, "How many hairs do I have on my head?" or even "How many hairs will I lose tomorrow, and the day after and the day after?"  

I watched a tv segment on one of the Holocaust survivors. A man named Elle Weisel, a Nobel Prize winner. I shed a few tears seeing the Auschwitz camp which took away so many lives. The Zyklon gas chambers which killed women,children and old people and the barracks which hosted the 'temporary alive' were so unimaginably unimaginable. People ask," How could anyone be so inhuman?" Elle Weisel said,"Then, it was human to be inhuman." 

An actor that can play the protagonist and the antagonist in a superbly talented manner gets our applause and admiration and yet at the same moment we drop our jaws at how people can swing from one end of the spectrum to another. The 'and yets' in life leaves no one with an answer to the ironies. You can call ONE person a lunatic. But an entire race that indirectly or directly advocated a horror that no mind can fully digest? That's not insanity. That's just people who held on to an identity that was self-created. The identity thereon determined their mindset, their convictions, their decisions, their actions and their future ultimately.(And frankly, the horror committed by so-called sane men were much worse than those committed by people the society condemns as serial rapists, killers, psychopaths)

So you see, human definitions of everything come along with tons of flaws to account for their imperfection. Mathematics has miscalculations, Law has exceptions, History has biasedness, and so on, so forth. So what DO people know for sure?

"How many hairs DO I have left on my head??"

 Only God knows....

Posted by nealee at 05:47 PM | spoilers?

I was reading my Economics textbook that day when I came across this article in relation to the problem of free-riding.

These two men were in jail given a day to decide whether or not to plead guilty. The judge and the jury knew that one of them committed the crime but they were not entirely sure. (Of course this in the legal sense is absurd but let's just assume the evidence were not in their favour at all. Even further, let's assume the evidence was far from helping to exonerate them.. almost treacherous on their behalf)

The results that were to happen were:

1. If they admitted they were both guilty: They would serve 5 years each in prison.

2. If one admits guilt, the other will be free to go while the guilty one will serve in prison for 8 years.

3. If both claim to not be guilty, both of them will be assumed as having committed the crime and will serve 7 years each.

This example was to illustrate to us the concept of 'free-riding' which is what us selfish beings do. When a good or something that serves a purpose is non-excludable and non-rivalrous in nature, we naturally wait for others to buy it and we enjoy it without paying a single cent. Just like in this case where the two men waited for one to admit their guilt to escape culpability.

I'm guilty of 'free-riding' too. I 'free-ride' on alot of things. Sometimes on someone's iPod, someone's mp3s, someone's original CDs, Someone's law books.... (rather sneaky sounding tho' if it weren't for my good friends)

But there is one 'free ride' which the provider would want us to invite as many people-selfish people;which refers to everyone(not that we are all fishmongers or what  haHAHH oh gosh I MUST stop humouring myself. I have been politely made aware that I am not funny but I can't help it!! haha) to come and have a 'free-ride' with the Bestest Friend on Heaven and on Earth. It's non-excludable and non-rivalrous yet me, myself and many people still hold on to the gift as though it's excludable in nature: once one has it the other can't make use of it; or rivalrous: once one has enjoyed its benefits, others can't experience the benefits too.

So, the message today is: 'When you are free, try offering a 'ride' or two to people who need to rest their weary feet.'

Posted by nealee at 06:00 PM | 2 spoilers

This entry will be very random. Very random. Editing will be done randomely too.

Why? (not "Because why?" like I very often mistakenly say)

This is because I have Somewhere Only We Know by Keane blasting in my ears which handicaps my capability to think and write coherently. Oh, now it's Blurry by Puddle of Mudd. Lame excuse? Well, excuse me nonetheless.

Random phrase in history: Britain is the workshop of the world.    Random phrase popped in Debbie: The idle man's mind is the workshop of the world.

Random musings on he who knows and knows not:

He who knows that he knows not? He is willing. Teach him.

He who knows not that he knows not? He is a fool. Don't listen to him.

He who knows not that he knows? He is asleep. Wake him.

He who knows that he knows? Wise man. Listen to him. 

Random information: There are 7 dots in the title.

Random advice: Listen to good advice while waiting in the dark for the light to appear. How do you tell an advice is good? When every characteristic of it is glorifying God.

Random famous sayings: Confucius- 'Don't give a man fish, teach him how to fish & he will live.'

Random bumper sticker: In the dark? Follow the Son.

Random joke: This was really really funny for me but maybe it's a 'You-Had-To-Be-There' joke. We'll see. Anyway, enjoy laughing if it's funny okay? 1. There was this movie called The Day After Tomorrow once. Well, immediately after the timpani introducing the title, the subtitle came out... 'LUSA'. I choked on the nuggets. That was not the worst. My friend told me, once in a movie, the actor yelled,"Duck! Duck!" to a man to warn him from a bullet coming his way.

The subtitles appeared. "ITIK! ITIK!"                                             (me: ?!??!!!*rolls on the floor laughing*)

Random food: Tomyam and Sotong Goreng at Idrus' off Penang Bridge.

Random I-Can't-Understand's: I can't understand how anyone can bear 2 hours of Hokkien actor and actresses screaming, yelling, howling, wailing, screeching, moaning, thundering, bellowing belligerently and crying hysterically EVERY SINGLE WEEKDAY. Gosh, I can't understand.

Random rambling: Gosh I can go on and on writing my randoms. I already have random I-Bet's, random No-one-knows' and random I Did-Not-Know's coming up. So I shall end this random poor display of self-amusing rhetoric here. Enjoy your day!

Random Oh-I-Forgot's: Oh, I forgot to say hello to December and Goodbye to the stressful month of November. Oh, I forgot I onlined to look for fonts. Oh. I forgot to write about my disappearance. Oh, I forgot to pat Harvey. Oh, I forgot I said I was going to end this entry.

Bye.

[Currently Watching: Someone looking intensely at something I-Can't-Understand.]

Posted by nealee at 04:35 PM | 1 spoilers