Ever slept in the afternoon and you wake up in your head but you can't seem to open your eyes or move a muscle? Yet you know you are awake? You peel your eyelids open just a little, and you catch a small glimpse of your room, however they are too heavy to open up. After a while of struggling, you suddenly manage to gather that every ebb of strength you have and the surge allows you to move a finger. It's like you fight your body to get up. People say it's normal- that it's not a medical disorder. OK. That's fine by me. However, it IS still a little horrifying. I can't seem to find an explanation for it. I want to know at least what is going on in my body at that point of time. Don't tell me that I'm having a nightmare, because that's not it. Plus, it happens in the afternoons. I've heard that it's common. Enlighten me, anyone?
[FEELING : puzzled]

Posted by nealee at 06:11 PM | spoilers?

An excerpt taken from my Moral Class assignment:

 When a lady Arizona learned, a few years ago,? she might bear a defective baby because she had taken Thalidomide, how was she decide? She asked the court to back her doctor and hospital in terminating the pregnancy and it refused, to the judge's chagrin, since the law prohibits non-medically indicated abortion without exception. Her husband took her to Sweeden where love has more control of law??!! and there her pregnancy was aborted. God be thanked, since the embryo was hideously deformed. But nobody could know for sure, it was a brave and responsible and right decision, even if the embryo had been all right.

The words in green denotes the nausea that I feel at that particular moment. Apart from the atrocious moral values or whatever virtuous characteristics this excerpt claims to have, the audacity of teaching it and assigning it to us is even more INSANE.

God be thanked?? What a nut! She definitely drafted this on her own. Of course she said it was from a book and got angry at the class after some bimbo so-called corrected her.( I would personally call it an improved error... as the correction was as wrong from the grammatical sense as the former too)

Alright then, a book she says. She asked us to check if we did not believe her. She waved the book at the rebel of the class (which of course was not me.) But, seriously... what publisher in the universe would have enough nuts in their skull to publish such an atrocity?

Beats me.

[FEELING : worried]

Posted by nealee at 09:40 PM | 3 spoilers

Funny how one can be so torn in life's dilemmas. No. Nothing funny about that at all. Everyone has dilemmas. Mine is just abounding. For instance, my friend in college has the dilemma of two opposite ends in a spectrum: Go to University of London (in London) to do law and live happily OR to stay here with her dad and study in IPG. It's really a worrying dilemma. Safe to say, hers is definitely proportionately larger than mine. I am faced with two dilemmas; one impending and another, I happen to be going through now. The impending dilemma shall be discussed much later.

I walk into MPH and go crazy literally on how many books I can't own and how many books I want to read. I walk into my room and I want to pick up Oscar Wilde's children's writing or something on British wit but guilt stops me afoot. Instead, my gaze is shifted to the mound of stuff i have to cover before the third week of September. My focus, that is of dire importance, is eluding me.

I have conscripted unwilling 'soldiers' to help me in my battle of studying. As Napoleon once said, "The life of a citizen is the property of the country." So I say, "The life of my friends is the property of my studying campaign." Poor poor people who let me frighten them into studying. So far I found two victims to sit and listen to my ramblings. One is scheduled on wednesday and the other on fridays. Thank you two for not letting my brain rot and die.

In conclusion, HOWEVER (which my sifu has told me is one of my worst faults in writing a law bomb), I have indeed chosen my love and am loving what I chose. Do not despise what God has put in you; your interests, passions and what-nots. As for the dilemmas in life, do not despise them too.  This is because:- 

Dilemmas(short-run)=debilitating disturbances

Dilemmas(long-run)= determination + divine intervention + destiny

Sticking through with the dilemmas with God = love + joy + peace, patience + kindness + goodness + faithfulness + gentleness + self-control! 

[FEELING : thankful]

Posted by nealee at 07:58 PM | 2 spoilers